Well it has been awhile since I have posted on here and I definitely miss it. The reason of why not is simple, I haven't been working out. The last 6 weeks (well 9 months) has been extremely frustrating, draining and just plain miserable for me. My plan was not to post updates about how crappy I was feeling or how hard it was to get out of bed. This blog is here for me to post/track my workouts, track my progress and feelings and for those of you who read it, I hope you get some joy out of reading it and maybe sometimes you might learn a few things here and there.... :) In writing this post, the last thing I want is a pitty party or anything like it... Just wanted to update everyone and hopefully help inch this chapter a bit closer to closed.
Anyways, minus some bike rides and my job as a coach, I have not worked out at all in the last 5 weeks and it has been driving me nuts! I miss it terribly! Last week I received my 3rd epidural in my lower back to help relieve the pain. The doctor said that the state of my back was the worse that it had been thus far. (Not to surprising) Anyway he loaded me up good during the shot in my spine and I almost immediately knew that this shot was going to be different, and not in a good way. While a bit faded, my pain was not gone... I was ready to lose it! I immediately called my doc, got a powerful mix of pain-pills which are already becoming useless for me. I then insisted that I meet with surgeon and that we get the process started toward surgery. At least now there is a light at the end!
All I know right now is I should be having surgery in the very near future, hopefully in the next 4-5 weeks. Until then I will begin to work out again on my own in a very limited fashion, 1) for my mental health, and 2) just to somewhat maintain what I have and hopefully lean up and lose a few. My options are slim right now as far as things that I can do. Bottom line though is that I'm done living my life in pain and if surgery is the answer then I am ready to get cut for the 4th time and hopefully last! Then ROCK the recovery and re-engage at CFV with my workouts.
Thats it folks! Thank you all for your support!
***Needless to say but I will sadly not be competing at the CrossFit/USAW event in Colorado next month. Good luck to CJ & Britt!
